Here's our little message board to you. I know you won't be able to see it for a few months, but I thought getting some of these feelings down would help. I'll try and include pictures of the kids when I get organized.
This was the second day you've been gone. Last night was hard. Ellie cried for you, wishing you'd come home and that I'd go away. It hurt, but I understand what she's doing. She ended up sleeping in our bed, snoring all night. Cal did fine, but he was a little teary-eyed after I sang him Goodnight My Angel.
The weather was excellent today, so I got Ellie's corkboard painted. I also contemplated cleaning up the yard, but it was early-release day, so I didn't really have a lot of time. Allie wants us to go to the Cape Friday, but now Ellie says she doesn't want to go. I'm sort of irritated, but I realize she probably wants to stick close to home now you're not around. Arianna is also very sick right now, so Ellie's upset about that. We're all very worried about her.
I'm doing okay. I've had several people call and check in, which is nice. It helps to know people are there for me. I don't think it's really hit me yet, how long you'll be gone. Whenever I try to picture that, my heart hurts. It's a horrible, hollow feeling. Well, I have dishes to do, and if I keep writing, I'll start crying, so I'll go keep myself busy.
Goodnight and stay safe. Love you.
Love,
Me
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